The Randomness of an aMaryLand Boy.....

You know, You know.

2010-06-11T11:26:00.000-04:00

I like this song.
Why Drake left this off the album , idk.

So....?

2010-04-19T22:07:00.000-04:00

I guess that's it.
that was quick.
all the doubts I had....
all the unsureness I had put away....
it was validated....
that quickly.
just as the star pitcher starts growing tired from wear,
and knows the rotation behind him is ready to step up,
and the manager wants to win....
someone else in the rotation takes the lead spot for the star pitcher....
while the star pitcher leads a journey into obscurity, and eventual free agency....
because we all know....
every manager keeps a team stocked....
and the manager wants to win....

but it's not so bad.
free agency is the change the pitcher needed....
new team, fresh start....
a blessing in disguise, if you believe.
because sometimes a wake up call is needed
to get you back on track.

I can't be mad at the team,
or the manager.
some players deserve it more than me.
the manager needs better results.
and I wasn't producing.
rather than giving a verbal tongue lashing or being mad...
or begging to rejoin the team......
I just look and laugh.
because the situation works for both the pitcher and the manager.
free time from the game is what I've needed....
I had it before I joined the team,
and now I'll have it afterwards.
because when a player leaves a team,
another team is always there to welcome a new addition....
that is, if I don't stay in free agency.

hopefully, the manager gets the production from their new pitcher....
hopefully he won't meet the same fate as his predecessor....
and hopefully, he'll be the team's new MVP and lead em to a championship.

but right now,
this pitcher is icing the shoulder,
resting the quads,
and enjoying a break that was unforeseen.
sooner or later, though.....
I'll talk to my agent....
and see if I can find a new team...
and hopefully,
I'll be another manager's star.

[I hope you get the analogy I was trying to get across.]

Bringing It All Together.

2010-04-11T22:09:00.005-04:00

small thing I just noticed:

I never put pics in my posts.

I wonder why.

well....

I guess I'll do a random one.

see?

random.

anywho....

I haven't posted in awhile....

which is commonplace for myself nowadays.

a lot on my mind nowadays,

which is a little weirder than usual.

so now,

I'm gonna take some time to just talk.

and knowing the people I know,

if they read this, it will be brought to my attention....

but I don't care.

School:

honestly, school isn't going 100% my way right now.

I have a C- in English [not really bad but nowhere close to good]

and I'm getting behind a lil bit.

and I'm just having a hard time finding motivation here right now.

I'm not depressed. just confused.

I have three weeks to turn it around.

and I know I never work to my potential....

but I have to....

so I hope to get back to it all.

Friends:

I love my people here at Tech,

especially the circle I run with.

but I always feel like they don't understand.

like they know what I say...

but they don't truly 'hear' what I'm saying.

I feel like everyone's view is so material sometimes....

it's like everyone has that whole

"it's college, no need to be so serious" creed....

and I just don't function like i don't care.

and I'm not saying that they're always like that...

but I feel that they're like that sometimes....

especially with girls and stuff....

I feel like everyone just wants a girl to fuck for the night....

while I want a girl to actually appreciate [hard to find in college I know]...

and ironically, things go so much better for them and not me....

everyone wants to drink....

I don't like drinking....yet I do it anyways (never a lot though)...

*sigh* idk why either....

and everyone wants to party.....

and I go....but I know I don't wanna be there.....

....idk. I just need to get my priorities straight and not fret.

Girls:

this has to be the most confusing thing on my mind.

which is normal.

but nowadays I'm just....idk.

the one girl I like here.....

and we've been arguing.....

and it's like....why....

and we talked and we're done with the petty arguments...

but still....

we only have three weeks....

we're not even in a relationship.....

and if we aren't by semester's end...

then I fear losing the chemistry and everything we had over the summer....

because I'm not gonna hold her to talking to me over the summer.....

because to be honest, if I don't see her during the summer,

I'm gonna be unhappy.

and I might not keep up with her well enough.

I know myself well enough to know that.

and that's three months.

so idk.....

and to be honest, a lot of girls at Tech are very unattractive to me.

and I mean a LOT of them....

cuz some just get extra drunk, which makes em extra slutty....

and it's like why would I want a girl who's loose as shit?

so if the girl and I don't work out....

I'm back to being single.....

and I don't expect any girl to change that anytime soon.

but the thing is.....

I don't fear it.

I've been by myself longer than I've been in relationships.

so not being in one isn't something to fret over,

considering it'll be a year since my last relationship in June.

*sigh* although it'd be nice to keep someone consistently happy....

but apparently, every girl just wants a guy to screw em and keep it moving....

so they can do them...

and I'm gonna do me.

[UPDATE: well, I guess it's over. that was quick....before I could even post it lol. so now I am single...hands down.]

Myself:

I just find myself lost sometimes out here.

I wish to be home so badly.....

but I know when I get there.....

I'll wish to be far away.

and I miss my mom so much.

I worry for her so much.

I just feel like my understanding of life is always so different from everyone....

and when I speak, no one really understands me....

so even when I'm with other people,

I still feel alone.

and it's not that I don't appreciate my friends.

but they don't think like me....

and they don't or won't understand where I come from a lot of the times.

and my other friends try to put religion on me sometimes....

and I already have a relationship with God and Jesus....

I know it's not perfect....but it's worked on....

and I'm just not into religious groups like everyone else is....

I just feel more comfortable praising God in my own privacy....

but he still gets praise in church.

idk...

I'm still lost. But summer shall be here soon.....

where I will sleep...forever....

or until summer school starts.

The Last Day of February.

2010-02-28T19:08:00.002-05:00

It's February 28th.

And what is there to say....

spring break is at the end of the week....

I got a toy to finish for this competition in my studio class....

a profile on the Hundreds to finish for English.....

not to mention all the beats I have to do over break...

these past few weeks have been weird.

let's stat with the social aspect:

went to a few parties these past few weeks.

If you know, then you know I'm not a party person....

I don't really like to drink, nor do I enjoy being around drunk people,

cuz they ALWAYS get OC.....

and then you're stuck babysitting/looking out for them.

regardless....the parties I've been to have been quite alright,

but I'm prob gonna stop going...or at least stop going as much...

like last semester.....

and just chill...which is what I enjoy, ya know?

next: the female aspect.

Over these past few weeks since the semester started,

i've been getting a feel for my surroundings, in relation to girls at VT.

last semester, I downed any possibility for a decent VT girl, since the majority likes to:

-party

-get too drunk

-get too lose to the point where they lose ALL inhibitions.

BUT

I found one.

a needle in a haystack.

a diamond among rubies.

a light among the clouds.

you get what I'm saying.

I found a girl here that's different than the rest.

someone who's hard to find, ya know?

and...I'm making progress with her.

she's so nice and I like her a lot....

it always makes me wonder, why am I deserving of the time of such a wonderful person?

...I'm finding the answer to that every day.

but I don't wanna get ahead of myself....

so I'll leave it at that.

To be real, though,

I'm tired.

I think it's time to head home,

catch up on friends, family, and sleep...lol.

but....let's see how this week goes.

College is an interesting experience so far.

The Human Chain.

2010-02-15T16:19:00.000-05:00

I love this Nike ad.
one of their best.

Happy Valentines' Day

2010-02-14T15:29:00.002-05:00

Happy Valentines Day to all,

whether you have one or not,

know you're all loved, yo.

That being said,

I haven't blogged in about one month.

and I feel bad about it.

so here's the catch up:

Just read a poem for an open mic on Friday.

I'll prob post it later.

Ummm....

went partying this weekend,

which is weird, considering I'm not big on parties....

what else.....

i met a girl down here....

she's nice.....

but I'm still figuring if she wants me to be that guy for her...

that's a blog post for another day...

I changed my major here.

Trying to do Industrial Design.....

then I can maybe get into sneaker design...

and that's it so far.

I'm gonna try to blog more often.

it's hard to keep consistent readers if I don't consistently blog.

so I shall.

and this song is for Valentines Day.

goes out to all the lovers out there.

a well known ATCQ jam.

Happy Valentines Day, y'all.

Take It In Blood.

2010-01-13T22:19:00.003-05:00

man I love this beat.
Chip tha Ripper did his own version of this song too.
But of course,
I like Nas's better.
Nas is my favorite MC.

that being said,
here's my list of my top ten favorite MCs/Groups.

1. Nas
2. Lupe Fiasco
3. The Cool Kids
4. A Tribe Called Quest
5. Common/Pac Div [tie]
6. Kanye West
7. De La Soul/J Dilla [tie]
8. Biggie
9. KiD CuDi
10. Any Madlib project lol [Madvillian, Quasimoto, etc.]

I know,
Jay-Z and Wale and a whole bunch of others
are NOT on here.
No disrespect to them or anything.
They just aren't in my top ten.
Although Jay and Wale get honorable mention.
I do listen to em.

Maybe tomorrow,
I'll do my top ten bands....
....
that'll take awhile lol....

My past two days looked like...

2010-01-13T17:36:00.004-05:00

a few events that have happened.

the dentist's office.
I had to get a cavity filled.
and that, my friend,
is a big ass needle
on the right side of that tray.
that got inserted into my jaw.
TWICE.
hurt like a bitch.
and I could not feel a thing.
for four hours or so.....
I'm good though, don't worry.
that was monday.

This was yesterday.

Verizon Center.
i was at the Wizards game against the Pistons.
nice seats right?
only problem was,
the Wizards LOST.
To a team that, up until this game,
lost 12 straight games.
smh....
oh well.

And that's the week so far.

Also,
please please please....
pray for those in Haiti....
donate where you can....
a little goes a long ways, people.
Look into your heart, people....
imagine if you were in that same situation....
just a lil bit, y'all.

Oh Leh Do Ittt!

2010-01-08T17:31:00.002-05:00

This post is just a shout to my man K Mills.
He has his own personal blog, called:
Luminescencee.
go peep when you get the chance.
his banner is in the righthand corner of the blog,
under the sB! banner.

Also, if you're on Twitter,
follow
@miszGECHI
@Simple_AsSetzer
&
@K_Mills

they're the reason this post is titled the way it is lol.
that's all.
Happy Friday.

Brand New.

2010-01-07T21:33:00.003-05:00

I realize,
I haven't shown the consistency on this blog
that it deserves.
so today....
I'm starting over.

I'm Travis Brown.
Some call me Trav, SB, SBTravie, etc....
and I'm gonna become your new favorite college student.

Every day, I'm gonna share some experience I've had at school,
and being this is spring semester, shit is gonna go DOWWWWN lol.

But yeah,
I'm not your average college student,
so this might be an interesting blog.....
I don't try to be different,
but I don't agree with everyone else.
So there in lies the conflict.
But yeah....
welcome.

Background info on me:
Freshman at Virginia Tech.
Straight out of Prince Georges County [Largo Largo!].
I got maaaaad issues lol.
And I write poetry [random, but one of my strong suits]
That's me.

And I write for spoiledBROKE! my secondary blog I do with my peoples.
read there to keep up with the trends of our current age of fashion and whatnot.

And that's that.
Come back when you can.

To Close the Night Out.

2010-01-06T00:57:00.000-05:00

something slow to close out a pretty good day.
so good night all.

More Random Music.

2010-01-05T12:48:00.000-05:00

hip hop for the day.

Music On My Mind.

2010-01-05T12:04:00.002-05:00

this is my shit.
expect random music today.

This Made Me Smile, yo.

2010-01-05T01:39:00.001-05:00

Happy 5th day of 20-10. lol

Hmmm....Random Thoughts from my week.

2010-01-03T22:42:00.002-05:00

a few things that happened overall:

Happy New Years. 2010 came in in style [I'm assuming lol].

Virginia Tech tapped some Tennessee ass in the Chick Fil A Bowl, 37-14.
[that's Tyrod lol]

Kobe did it again. Against my Kings though [their my second team] =(. Game winning three.....
I like Kobe though....
you think he gets tired of hitting game winning threes?
nah....it's probably like a bag of Lays to him...
he can't just have one....smh lol.

My Bulls [my favorite NBA team....] beating the Magic on Saturday. That's four straight man.

that was my week in a sense. lol

2009: a Recap.

2009-12-30T02:34:00.000-05:00

so 2009 is coming to a close....
so soon, right?
well, in light of this,
I'm gonna reflect on this 2009,
my 2009.
where to start.....

Graduation.
that was.....
okay.
I was glad to say I made it
through 12 years of SHIT.
lol.
public school was....
interesting.
and when I have kids.....
they will ALL be going to public school too.
lol.
that shit sets you up to be less awkward
in the real world.
trust me.

What else....

College.
My first year has been
fun,
so far.
I'm working hard.
but damn,
B's all across the board.
oh well.
Next semester, it'll be
more of an A-B variety.
Tech is cool though.

Relationships.
man.....
idk where this starts....
or where it ends.....
this year was a weird year for relationships
for me, that is.
I came into 2009 in one....
and now I'm not in one
and will finish the year out that way,
most likely.
The original one I was in....
it was good....
but we were headed in a bad direction....
and it ended....
but it happens.
i don't blame anyone for that.
Then the other relationship I was in....
there aren't enough words to describe it.
but i enjoyed the time we had.
it's weird.
i picked this year to,
for the first time,
cheat.
smart guy, right?
and now I'm stuck on this girl....
cuz it feels like it ended so abrupt.
and it's the first time I've been stuck
on ANY girl for this long.
and idk.....
i miss her....
and idk....
she might be a part of my 2010....
or we'll be apart in 2010.
you know which one I'm hoping for.

Myself, Personally.
this year has been quite the learning experience
cuz I've found out a lot on myself.
who I am...
what's my true motivation....
and where I've come from.
but I've also found out
i got a long ways to go....

Friends.
got many.
and it's taken me four years to truly
weed out who's real and who's not.
and I'm just glad to have people around me
that care,
no matter how close we are.

and I think that's it.
I'm sure there's more.
but yeah,
this is my 2009 reflection.

Just a few random things.

2009-12-28T13:00:00.005-05:00

a few things I got on the first day of...
*trumpet plays*
Kwanzaa.
AKA
the day after Christmas
to some.
nonetheless,
I got three things at the mall.

one:
a hat.

not just any fitted though.
i've been looking for this fitted
for over a year.
bet.
i FINALLY got it.

Two:
a watch.

a nixon.
pink on black.
i like it.

the third thing was rock band 2.
but i already had it.
i just had to get a new one.
lol.

but yeah.
randomness.
that's all.

No insight, Just randomness.

2009-12-27T19:30:00.003-05:00

blaow.
good evening, everyone.
i am here.
Merry Christmas [late]
Happy Second Day of Kwanzaa to everyone.
Yo,
we're five days away from a new year.
anyone have any New Years' Resolutions?

well,
I don't.
I figured if you really wanna make a change,
you'd make it on any day.

i mean,
the beginning of a new year is a great time to start,
but,
idk,
people don't even take it seriously,
resolutions always fall through.
but still.....

I do have some changes to make....
for one,
i need to change this blog up.
full overhaul lol.
cuz, well,
it's sorta dry.
so,
overhaul.

Two:
i gotta take some time to....
find myself.
literally.
it's like my mind isn't with me,
like it's elsewhere whenever i need it around.
and it sucks.

Three:
I am determined
to bring back romance.
i realize as I grow that
romance is a dying trend.
like romance has chemistry intertwined almost.
yet,
it's so rare to see it nowadays,
because the world only accepts
instant gratification.
I remember a time where guys and girls used to have romance.....
what happened?
when did we become a zombified generation,
where all we obsess with is sex and
getting what we want?

why have we lost the days,
where making jokes with a girl you like was commonplace?
and just having such a strong chemistry is normal?
it's like no one tries to work on it,
and it just kinda sucks.

....so i'm out to fix that.

Four:
I gotta network.
simple.
lol.

and I think these are some ideas for me to work on.....
for now.

trust and believe,
something else will find its way on the list lol.

til then.....
g'night, world.

Sunshine : A Poem for a Friend.

2009-12-27T18:23:00.002-05:00

shouts to my Twitter friend Sunshiiine.
i volunteered to write her a poem.
so,
here we go.

[i hope this came out good lol]

She calls herself Sunshine,
I do admit she seems bright,
she's an individual of her own,
trendsetter, her style's tight.

She needed entertainment,
too bad I didn't have skill,
then I forgot, I can write poetry
cuz with my words I do tend to kill.....[lol]

So now I write a poem,
hopefully, it will impress,
if not, at least I gave it a try,
no need to really stress.

But back to this young lady,
I don't know her very well,
but when I read her tweets and blog
she seems like she's really swell.

Hopefully I'll get to know her,
and we can become better friends,
so when she wants another poem
I can, at least, try again.

Classic example of a......a snow day.

2009-12-19T17:43:00.003-05:00

so tell me,
does your house look like this?

no?
well mine does.
as a matter of fact,
i took this picture from my window,
and the snow hasn't stopped either.

can you say,
someone was really dreaming of a white Christmas?

this snow is gonna keep going into tomorrow morning....
but...
i like snow lol.
so...
it doesn't bother me.

regardless,
hello all.
today has been extremely
uneventful.
just been..
tweeting my life away.
that's all.

i'm trying to find a way to make my blog
more appealing.
there used to be a time
where i had consistent readers.
idk what happened....
but now i need to
get em all back.

so from now
til whenever people read some more
i will try to increase readership.

but for now,
i'll just blog
and maybe it'll catch on with people.

On a small note.

2009-12-18T23:12:00.002-05:00

i need to rename my blog.
it's been this name for almost two years.
and i feel like it should be changed now.
maybe shorter.
idk.
really
the number of visitors I get....
I'm bound to, really,
not get too much input on this topic.
so i guess the decision is solely in my hands
[what a surprise....]

and i'm extremely....
indecisive.
another surprise,
right?

i'll figure this out....
i think.

Q&A

2009-12-18T22:29:00.003-05:00

Hello.
On this snowy evening in Maryland,
I wish you a good evening.
Blogging seems to be the only way I can get the things in my mind
onto paper.
like,
there's no one to tell this to,
because i know,
everyone feels some way
about the things i say
and feel.
so i just vent here
for the world to see.
that is, if anyone reads....

if not,
doesn't matter.
this blog is for me,
not for others.....
i write to just get everything out....
i don't do this for anyone else.....

regardless,
i'm still conflicted
in my mind
and in my heart...

why do i do this....
i go and hope.....
and i ask....
and i end up just fuckin everything up.
confusion in my mind,
and just conflicts everywhere else.

*sigh*
still.
why is it so hard for me to
work with a girl?
all my relationships end on some fault of mine...
and i can't seem to keep things together.
i ALWAYS mess up a good thing.

and then i'm so damn shy
that even when I'm single
I can't even tell a girl
how I feel.

it's so weird.
i find myself as a kind of my own.
one without a true characteristic.
i'm not the guy who wants to go fuck around with girls
one day
and forget em
the next.
Nor am I the guy who can get the girl
i like
because I'm always so damn nervous.
and when I do step up,
it never works.

and it's weird,
because everyone thinks
i get girls like clocks count seconds.

and i'm not like that.
i've spent the last six months
not talking to anyone.
i've been quiet
and just trying to get an education.

but nowadays....
it's so hard to find a nice girl.
why?
to be honest,
that might be part of the reason why
i still feel the way i do
for my last girl.
girls are so hard to find
[good ones that is]
because it's like
the ones that are here,
available,
are nothing like
what you want.
and the ones you do want
are unattainable.

my mother told me one day
i always try to date girls
that are unattainable.
and to be honest,
she's right.
because the unattainable ones
are usually the ones you want to date.
i've had so many girls
i wish weren't so unattainable.
because it's so hard
to do anything with them.
and it makes you regret
ever trying to be with them.

i just hate being alone though.
not because a relationship makes me feel good about myself.
but because i just....
i like having a girl to be around,
to just do stuff with,
and be stupid around.
is that too much to ask for?

maybe it is.

who knows....
confusion is all around me though.
and for me
an idle mind
[not hands]
is the devil's playground.
because my thoughts would
consume me faster than
the Atlantic Ocean
during a hurricane.
who knows....

but for now....
i'll just watch the snow fall
out my window.

Understanding.

2009-12-17T22:50:00.002-05:00

i don't think we have an understanding.
i feel like shit is out of sync.
we're not on the same page,
are we?

that's a life story.
being lost,
not knowing what's really going on,
around me,
or inside of my mind,
or heart.

a poem couldn't even sort this out.

that being said,
i have to be real.
can i even say we're heading somewhere....
do you believe we are heading somewhere?
or are we headed in two different directions?

i feel that there are so many unanswered questions....
and it's like none of them will ever be answered....
and it makes me feel
sad.
lost.
and unsure.

because
you and i,
had something real,
you know?
and i mean
i don't know whether or not
we're a worthy cause.....

but i do like you.
i know we had something realer than real.
it felt like it would never end,
...
...
...
...
...
but it did.

and when we got to
that abrupt end,
like turned into love.
and we shared memories.
it felt as if,
we didn't have enough time,
because every thing feels incomplete.....

but who am i to blame you,
because it was my fault to begin with.....
so now regret stands with love.
and i hate the fact it happened,
wishing life had a rewind button......

but everything happens for a reason,
so they say,
so i guess i have to stay hopeful,
for the best,
for my own sake.....

but i feel like you don't understand.....
and i feel like i'll be left behind....
i'll just be memories......
the same memories that haunt me every day,
because it reminds me of where we aren't,
and what we aren't anymore....

how it sucks to have regret.

and to think.......
i could've had you now....

but six months later....
i don't.

and the sad realization is,
i push so hard to just get over it....
and i believe i am.....
but it always....
ALWAYS.....
comes back to you.

and i don't know why.
is that how love is?
is that what it does?

....i don't know.

so now i sit,
alone.
wondering,
if you understand....
how bad i want you back.

i'm sure you do......
but i guess the real question is....

do i realize,
how much you do want it?
or
am i too blind to realize,
realistically,
maybe,
you DON'T want it back.....

....we'll see.

good night.

First Semester done.

2009-12-16T23:08:00.003-05:00

hello blog world.
the wonderful stylings of Travis Brown are back.
for the entire winter break.
i haven't wrote on my blog in a month or so.
and i realize that when you work for blogs that aren't so personal,
you lose touch with yourself.
so i'm back to posting stuff.
but feel free to visit www.spoiledbroke.com as well.
that's my 'work' blog.
lol.
[if you click sbtravie on that blog, that's my posts.peep it lol]

nonetheless.
i am alive.
and home.
and i'm glad.
but to be honest,
i feel.....
alone.

I can't seem to feel happy because of this somedays.
and you know every guy's mentality,
'fuck emotions. that's a female's trait'
or
'nigga fuck that relationship shit. we young out here.
you got your whole life for that.'

well, either way,
i don't think that.
i think having a Her on my side makes me happier than anything in the world.
because that girl is my equal.
i can make her laugh,
tell her anything.
tell her things i wouldn't tell my friends,
some things i wouldn't even tell my moms.
i would give her as much energy she would want from me,
and she would do the same.
and I wouldn't even ask her to give that much,

cuz I would rather give her the world.

but somedays....
trying to attain that isn't easy.....
because people come....
and people go.
that's life.

but I can't put too much energy into that right now....
it'll happen when the time is right.

but still....
It's the Holiday Season.
so...
don't be selfish....
okay?

A Privilege.

2009-11-18T16:09:00.004-05:00

Hey.
Now it's time for me to vent i guess.
haven't done a philosophical venting post in awhile....but here goes.....

I consider it a privilege.
where I stand, where I've been,
and hopefully,
where I go.
I look back and I see where I could've been,
what circumstances could've truly played out in my life,
and I see how fortunate and how blessed I am to wake up and see another day given to me,
because I think we all forget from time to time that,
no day is promised. Nothing in this life is guaranteed to any of us.
And I mean,
you can't take a day for granted.
I thought to myself today,
that I've received a huge privilege,
to go to a school where I can receive my education,
an education I want.
Because in all honesty,
this was a choice I alone made.
I could have just stayed home and worked.
No one forced me here.
I decided that I want to further myself, give myself a chance to be, to exist, without having to struggle, like I have seen so many in my family struggle.
That's not to say it's because they didn't go on to get a degree or anything,
but it doesn't necessarily mean it wouldn't have helped some....maybe....
regardless,
I'm here.
and I just feel motivated,
to keep it going,
and although I made the choice to be here,
I'm not here for myself, solely.
I'm here for my mother.
I'm here for that person whose life I'll one day change.
I'm here for a world that will one day need a good idea that I can hopefully come up with.
I'm here to become what you least expect.
Success, to me, can never be measured by what you have or how high you've climbed in life. Success can only be measured by how many peoples' lives you've improved through your actions, by how much you've improved the world through what you have done.
And until the day comes that I can say I've improved someone else's condition,
that I've changed the world for the better,
I can't say I'm successful.
Not yet.
But one day,
my time will come.
But I can't do it alone.
Nothing is done without the help of God.
He's guided me this far,
and I know He'll guide me the rest of the way.

Wow. And I Come Back on Halloween.

2009-10-31T21:10:00.002-04:00

Hello All.
It be me.
Travie.
Okay, so much has changed over these past few months.
so i'll update ya now.

One: I'm in college now. Virginia Tech to be exact. Crazy, right? Majoring in Landscape Architecture. Sounds like fun, right? I guess so.

Two: I'm writing on another blog now. spoiledBROKE to be exact. peep it.
www.spoiledbroke.com

Three: I am single now. So much for my last girl.....but it happens.

Four: I'm back. I think. lol.

Hmmmmmmmm

2009-07-03T14:58:00.002-04:00

blogging.
yes i am.
i guess.
i haven't blogged in.....ages.
and i'm bored.
watching the breakfast club.
saw sixteen candles yesterday.
all these 80's movies are cool.
still....
i'm making some changes.
stepping my shoe game up [yessir lol]
getting back to my t shirt wearing habits.
cargo shorts.
lol simple.....
and i'm on my indie business AGAIN.
i love indie rock so much.
if i could, that's all the music in the world would be.
indie rock makes for the BEST soundtrack for life.
just ponder that....lol
give any indie rock a try.

With four minutes left on my birthday.....

2009-06-07T23:56:00.002-04:00

hey people. hey.
i'm 18 today.
feeling good i guess.
well, i'm tired actually.
i was at kings dominion today.
but i was posting to say i'm happy to be alive to see 18.
i know many who haven't made it to see the day they're supposed to be 18.
and i'm here...
thank God.
thank my mother.
thank everyone who helped me get here.
thank life.
and thank you.

Forgive me.....

2009-05-31T22:42:00.003-04:00

I haven't blogged in quite awhile......
my own fault really....but.....yeah...
i am alive [thank God]
and i have been occupied very much so........
but now all I have to do is graduate tuesday........
but yeah let's see what i've been doing lately....
prom....
exams....
graduation practice......
AP exams.....
life of a senior, right?
I thought so lol.....

but yeah, I graduate Tuesday.....
and then after that, the time to blog will hopefully be there......

BTW.....my birthday is in a week.....the big 1-8........it's come so soon.........
a semi-adult lol........

but hmmmm......i have a quote.....one i actually learned about a year ago......
it's from Nelson Mandela:
"To be free is not merely to cast off one's chains, but to live in a way that respects and enhances the freedom of others."
Night people.

So.....I'm headed to.....

2009-05-05T19:15:00.002-04:00

Virginia Tech.
Yup.
i'm lookin' for a roommate now and stuff....
but i think i'm about to be set.....
i'm on track to graduate....

this summer is gonna be chill.......
spend a lot of time with my babe, too......
might go to va tech for a six week program....but idk.......
cuz it's for engineering, NOT architecture, yet people are telling me to sign up anyways.....

anywho....
i'm feeling...a headache
i had to deal with this ap stat exam today.....
my teacher went over absolutely nothing that was on the test.....
that was weird....oh well.....
i worked the test to the best of my ability.....
so i guess i'll blog later....

[btw i got a roommate now. Good thing i did....he's a cool dude]

The Decision is Never easy.....

2009-04-28T20:47:00.002-04:00

......and never will be.
I have to decide where I'm going to school...
and know by sure by Friday.....
I thought I was set on VA Tech.....

then I get a letter of admission from St. Johns'.....
with $10,000 scholarship.........
and now I am back to square one ALL OVER AGAIN....

and idk what is the right decision....
that's the sad thing right now....
i had my heart set on Va Tech.....
then I get a letter of admission from St. Johns'....
and it throws everything out of whack.....
this is so confusing......
what does a man do........

and this decision runs so much deeper than the surface too.......
so many things that throw off my decision......
ugh.......

Yo.

2009-04-21T20:58:00.005-04:00

I'm alive.
and busy.
but alive, nonetheless.......
life is......what it is......
i've been behind because i've been busy
last weekend i was at VA Tech...
weekend before, i was out....
and i had a performance at Blues Alley.....
which meant a lot to me. [the babe was there. made it even better]
but yeah....
what is up?

i'm thinkin on VA tech....
if i go.....
the blog name will have to be changed....
to like.......

The Randomness of a VA Tech Student....
no, wait.....
The Randomness of an aMaryland Boy.....@ va tech.

idk....something to think about....
whatever.....
i'm in class.....
so i'll blog later......

Hello on a Friday Morning....

2009-04-08T21:14:00.004-04:00

Sup?
It's a beautiful, cloudy morning in MD.....
at least where I am.....
anyways.....
I'm on my spring break......
and I'm chill.
My break has been okay this week....
got a performance Monday @ Blues Alley........
that's something major in my mind.....
oh well.....
still.
idk what to write about.......
lemme see......
i guess i'll talk about music.

Album: You're a Woman, I'm a Machine

Listen to......Death From Above 1979.
best rock group ever.
point blank.
lol.
but they're a fun group to listen to.
Their song is on my blog.....a remix to Little Girl, one of my fave songs by them.
they are vicious though.
check em out.
although this remix sounds a bit techno-ish, their music isn't really techno,
more synth rock, somewhat.
it's more intensity behind their music too......
so yeah...
peep em.

So It's a Monday Morning...

2009-04-04T15:59:00.002-04:00

....and I'm blogging.
saying what's up world.
what's good.
i wish i had something cool to post.....
but, alas, i do not grasp anything worthy of blogging about...
except my new shoes lol......
new dunks [which is only the third pair i'll own]
but they look nice....

purple black and white......
i like them cuz they're in a color you have to be real sharp in
like, your outfit has to be real simple or really match with the shoes
otherwise, it looks like the shoes may not go together....
still....
i like em....
i'll be on later this week....
with more to say i presume.......

btw
this week has been okay
got back in town Friday
but my girl left for Myrtle Beach today :(
and she won't be back til Thursday......
ugh.
oh well.....
i'm getting ready for spring season....
clothes.....
sneaks......
w/e....

YO!!!!!!

2009-04-02T12:28:00.002-04:00

sup everyone.
i'm here.....in Oklahoma right now.
Midwest City, actually......
still....
i miss MD....but I'm glad I came out here.....
i've been here since Sunday......
still.....
i went to Oklahoma state yesterday
big school.
they're making it hard to choose whether I'm going to VA Tech or there....
i got a niiiice tour.....like
it was NOICE.......very noice......
one-on-one personal tour....
but i go to va tech in two weeks....
so i'll see.....
i pray for insight on this situation.....

anyways.....life is okay....
talked to my ex a little biit........
that's whatever.......

talking to my girl every night...
she misses me a lot....a LOT.....
and i miss her too...
i've been writing her poetry since i've been gone....
and i sent her one on Sunday.....
she loved it.....
i'll post it later to here and facebook.....
but yeah...
i'll check in when I get back to MD.....
or when we stop in Memphis....

My bloggings from Sunday...

2009-03-30T13:47:00.001-04:00

1:23 PM: so I'm on the plane to Oklahoma city, which requires a stop
in Memphis....my mother has been pushing it......I'm tired....and I'll
be in Memphis in 15mins......so I'm gonna take a nap....

1:59 pm (memphis is an hour behind) so I forgot about the time
change....so it was actually an hour instead of 15 mins.....LOL....but
I have a headache....and I just ate a barbecue sandwich....I'm sleepy
again.....and I plan to blog every day til I return....which is
Friday...but anyways, my next flight is in 20 mins.....

3:46 pm: touched down in Oklahoma city...the gate it occupied so I'm
still on the plane LOL.....

4:40 pm: chillin at my uncle's house....

Sent from my iPhone

And I thought my week was going weird at FIRST....

2009-03-27T20:51:00.002-04:00

.....instead this entire week has been weird.....
like, it's a karma-iotic week.
what I mean is,
for every good thing that has happened,
a bad thing follows.......

observe:
Got into VA Tech, good
gf and I broke up, bad

found a new girl who likes me a lot, great
my aunt DIES, horrible

find out i have some loot in my bank account all of a sudden, great
get in trouble by my mother calling the school and hearing about my AP physics grade, SUCKS BADLY

I got to go to the school play to see the girl I like in it and I meet her family, awesome
was not able to drive there and turned up late for the show, unfortunate

going on a date tomorrow I think, great
GOING TO OKLAHOMA RATHER THAN STAYING HERE on Sunday, *sigh*

see what I mean?
this week has been weird......
oh well.....
I've made it this far.....

Chillin' at the library..........

2009-03-24T19:04:00.003-04:00

So yeah
Blogging once again from my iPhone....
I'm at the library with my friend Taylor
She's really pretty.....
But anyways
Yeah
A lot has happened over the past week.....
I got into VA Tech [my first choice] and I'm happy
BUT
My girlfriend and I broke up on Sunday..... :(
But there's this girl named Taylor (who's with me)
Who is really cute...and idk....she likes me :)
So everything isn't SOOOO bad
But still....I'm alive....
And I don't have anything suprisingly today....
Just an update in my life....
But I'll be back later this week with more.....
Until then,
Just.........
think about it.

So it's a Sunday, and........

2009-03-15T20:25:00.005-04:00

what's up?
lol.

peep this.

http://www.coloribus.com/paedia/prints/2009/03/11/290722/show/

for those who don't feel like clicking the link......

this is single-handedly......
the coolest thing i've seen in QUITE awhile......
this is crazy.........hella crazy.......
man......

what do ya think about this?

Well...

2009-03-14T20:01:00.004-04:00

what's up?
i'm back to being an artisan of hip-hop.....
today.....
i'm listening to Drake.....
never listened to him before......
but people have said he's tight.....
[which makes me skeptical]
but i'm skeptical because........
usually when people hype up some people, their skill sometimes can seem overrated
like, they aren't as great as people make em out to be.....
but from what i hear, he's good
i like the music so far.....
i just downloaded So Far Gone.....like 10 minutes ago.....
and he seems good
but i'm listening still, so i have to let it grow on me...
but he's good so far.

but his quote on the Complex blog about naming the mixtape made me want to see what he was about.....cuz I get tired of hearing drugs this, shoot that, suck this, fuck that.....how rappers view women and shit......the reasons why i stopped liking rap, and just stuck to my hip-hop listenin', Chi-town artists like Lupe, Cool Kids, Common, Mr. West.....and so on.....

but he said this:
"The whole tape extends from one of my closest friends Oliver—One night we were having a discussion about women and the way we were talking about them, it was so brazen and so disrespectful. He texted me right after we got off the phone and he was like, “Are we becoming the men that our mothers divorced?” That’s really where the cover comes from, too. It’ just this kid in pursuit of love and money. We’re good guys, I’m friends with some real good people and for him to even text me after we got off the phone it just showed we have a conscience. But sometimes you just get so far gone, you get wrapped up in this shit. The title has a lot of meanings—as the way we carry ourselves, the way we dress, the way people view us, not to sound cocky, it’s just that feeling that we’re just distanced in a good way. You’re just elevating past the bullshit and past all the shit that you used to be a part of and you’re not that proud of, you’re just so far gone."

so yeah.

Man......

2009-03-05T10:21:00.002-05:00

well.....
it's been about a week.....
i've been.....busy.
been doing........stuff [i guess lol]
and now i find myself this morning on here making a new blog while i have time because i'm not doing anything at the moment......
this girl next to me is not in this class yet she's here, typing up a storm.....lol
but she's cool anyways......
but uh, yeah, anyways.......
hello.
morning.
umm......
i feel like i have a quote somewhere....
wait....
....
...
....
....
....
....
ah.
here we are.
Failure is the condiment that gives success its flavor.
-Truman Capote
think about it.

Yo Yo Yo.......

2009-02-23T10:32:00.002-05:00

back again.
bored...
today i did some stuff.....
mainly, change my blog's song.....
cuz Calvin Harris is the man lol....

but I have a quote....
from myself tonight lol.....

"That's what life is. The learning stage."
-Me.

I don't wanna hear that bull.....I wanna hear that official...............Kanye and that Twista........that's so impossible to get it...lol

2009-02-18T08:13:00.001-05:00

i love that song.......
anyways.......
happy tuesday, people.
just ate some cheez-its......
and now idk what to do........
hmmm........
vlog?
maybe a broadcast show on the internet?
who knows..........
i like my blogspot though, so idk......

A WEDNESDAY MORNING LATER......

oh snap.
i forgot to finish the blog yesterday....
well, morning lol

um i guess my post will be music....

my favorite artist: A Tribe Called Quest

well
i have these two CDs
the best ones
all songs are good
[my faves are Show Business[Low End Theory], Butter[Low End Theory], Six Million Stories[Midnight Marauders].....actually my fave CD is Midnight Marauders period.

LMAO okay, it's official....Kobe has taken it too far....

2009-02-15T17:23:00.002-05:00

I know the vid is like a month old.....
but it's funny.....
yet it makes me ponder....

why are athletes so dumb [i mean in a funny way, not in a 'stupid' way]
Like all Nike athletes are funny......
LeBron...
Kobe.....
MJ was a funny guy from time to time.....
Derek Jeter.....
they all are funny.
i just wonder where the time is found to do this.....

anyways, what's your take on the vid above?
[btw youtube in HD or HQ or w/e cool......steppin up, huh, YouTube? lol]

My Video Log.....VLog.....w/e....

2009-02-10T19:59:00.007-05:00

i have two.....lol

one for foolishness....

and the other for talk....reallllllll quick....

OHHHH i forgot.
I'm waiting on my Jordan XI's from eBay lls
I've always wanted a pair....

the quote is......

They always say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself.
-Andy Warhol

think about it.....

how was your day[s]?

Tuesday Randomness....ALL OVER AGAIN lls....

2009-02-10T19:29:00.003-05:00

...now with.......
MUSIC!
lol.
but yeah i'm back.
hey.
hi.
what's up.
hello, world.

today's randomness, you get both a quote, and my music recs.....

first: music.

Album: The Colour and The Shape
Artist: The Foo Fighters
Song: Everlong [i just downloaded the CD, so give me time, but I love the Foo Fighters, so the CD is solid overall, anyways lol]

The band is amazing. Dave Grohl is the man!!!!! [alishia knows.....lol on the phone during the grammys....]

Artist: The Cool Kids

I've blogged on them before, and i'm doing it again to reiterate my point. THE COOL KIDS ARE THE BEST [AND THE COOLEST, OF COURSE.....] THEY ARE AWESOME.

And now, for my quote.....

Truth is the secret of eloquence and of virtue, the basis of moral authority; it is the highest summit of art and life.

-Henri-Frédéric Amiel

Think about it.

So i'm blogging from AP Physics C....on my iPhone.....

2009-02-05T10:03:00.003-05:00

So I'm bored.
And haven't blogged in almost a week.
I'm just okay.
I wonder how everyone else is doing.....
I'll prob blog some more when I get home.
But for now......LOL I'll do it from here.

I need some ideas for valentines' day for my girlfriend and I.
Seeing that I have female readers,
What would you want your significant other to do for you?
The small things (which I love doing for my girlfriend)?
Or the big things, like an all day experience....?

FRiday, and I have school off, so.......

2009-01-30T10:15:00.003-05:00

i'm semi-bored.
only cuz i've been up since 8:30ish
and haven't done too much.

*sigh* I'm okay,
but my day was bittersweet yesterday....
here's what happened......

I got a C in AP Physics C, which is good, considering I have struggled a lot in that class, and I got a D last quarter. A C is a step in the right direction [hopefully].....

but then, later that day, I was supposed to see my girlfriend.......but then her mother called me to tell me I will not be seeing her this weekend at ALL......nor could I give her a ride home from the wrestling match at her school I was going to......and then her mother said 'have fun'.....that made me angry, but anger wasn't going to help me. She just stopped everything I guess.....and my girlfriend was upset.....and things were so bad, I wasn't even able to give her a kiss goodnight, cuz she was upset that i could not give her a ride home [she did not want to ride with her mother.....] and she was frustrated i guess......i felt so......idk. But it left me feeling bad.....idk......well, idk what i'm gonna do this weekend now.......better find something....

Tuesday....and I'm HEATED.....

2009-01-27T17:21:00.002-05:00

wtf.
how the heck did i have school today, and we're the only county not out.......
then it starts snowing like out of nowhere
and PG decides we should get out two hours early, though we should've never gone in the first place...
one of only TWO schools who had to go in today.......
wtf.

got home, had to shovel.
lost all feeling in my fingers.....
hurt my shoulder.......

now i'm doing my resume,
making up photography assignments,
and stuff.

so all I have is a quote:

Pleasure in the job puts perfection in the work.
-Aristotle

think about it.

It's...Monday?

2009-01-26T22:57:00.003-05:00

wow, I haven't blogged on a back-to-back basis in over four months lol
nonetheless......today's blog is music based..........
two bands i'm rockin' to right now [besides Time To Fly, which is the best band I know!]

Artist: This Providence
Album: Our Worlds Divorce [2004]
Songs of Note: Catching My Breath, Any Romantic Fairytale

funny thing is, i never heard this album until yesterday. best one I've listened to in awhile actually. that is, if you like some alternative rock. i like 'em. lol.

Artist: The Smashing Pumpkins
Album: Siamese Dream [1993]
Songs of Note: Cherub Rock, Today, Hummer

Now, I listen to all genres of music, and rock is my favorite genre [hip-hop's second, honestly lol]...and the smashing pumpkins are one of the best rock bands i've listened to. Just find their song "Today" and you'll be like, wow. Nonetheless, find them. They're good.

and on that note, I'm done lol.
tomorrow, i MAY blog and do a back-to-back-to-back blog, something I've never done lls.
But uh, yeah. Night to all, and to all, a pleasent night. PEACE.

So it's Sunday......

2009-01-25T15:57:00.003-05:00

and i feel quite random.
let's see....
well, i'm watching the x-games [go heath frisby! f***in snowmobile, my man!]
....a frisby air is tight.....[search it]

anyways....listening to time to fly [why did they break up? best band ever! no question....hmmm i'm about to change my blog song to them.....the best bands always break up.....which sucks :( but oh well.....i have their music on this comp to jam to.......]

i wondered why smart ass alishia wants to be my 'elder' now, but when i wanted to buy her a cane, she complained.........whatever lol........

hmmmm come february, bad ingrish is back to work i think. mat is stoked. i'm a bit happier cuz i can make some ner beats to throw on and we can jam at the studio.......

i miss my Sunshine.....she is the sweetest. i write her poetry almost sporatically.......

WAIT.....need to hit the b-room up real quick.......

okay, where was I? right.....i miss her. i love her too. and this isn't a word i throw around all willy nilly and whatnot. I've had to think to myself, just as she has too.....i've been dating her going on nine months....tomorrow, actually....[just noticed lls]....and I hate leaving her....makes me sad......but nonetheless, one must push on.....but i'll hopefully see her on friday [my prayer lls]...i love my Sunshine.

hmmm my iPhone gets me.....no mms? wtf.....oh well...and no video? dumb! but i guess it'll come eventually...........

and that's that.
OH i heard it supposed to be wintry mix all week until FRIDAY [can you say, the Lord has blessed me? mmm i may see her after all. the day we have off is the day that's gonna be great.]

So I'm here....two weeks later.....Mr. Inconsistency, I know....

2009-01-21T20:02:00.006-05:00

....but I'm here.
idk.
i don't sit to blog like i wanna.
but i will today.
so
hi.
my day sucked. but eh, what can i say? I'm breathing........lls.

i kinda photoblogged today.....
on how my evening has gone......
so uh, here we go......

stupid zane. We're in class.

shaneka standing next to me. and alex too.

Getting some Chinese food for home...

yup yup.

hop on in. The corolla....to drive home in.

that was my evening.
lol.
how was your day?

Tired......but kicking.

2009-01-06T19:33:00.002-05:00

hello to all.
just saying hey.
tired.
dk why.....
oh well.

It's January 6th......a tuesday......
and I'm so effin tired.......
and i realize I need a way to get more people to read my blog.....
I'm glad for those who do read, but idk, I feel like I should have more......

i guess cuz i don't have too much to post except maybe a quote or a poem......
but if you read, THANKS.
But if you do read and don't comment, just leave a comment so I can at least go to your blog and see the cool stuff....

so yeah. PEACE.
i'll be posting later this week....

in between Christmas, Kwanzaa, & New Years'.....

2008-12-30T13:20:00.006-05:00

Having a great break. Girlfriend and I are seeing each other a lot, so that's cool. Got an iPhone.....close as i will get to the car i keep asking for......[fairytale like iish lls] but no, life is good. Love life.......apps are almost done......music is really sticking to me during the break like it always does, but i find myself feeling great.....new year two days from now.....can't wait. graduate, hit eighteen, go to college, and hit the next chapter of my life.......but for now, i'll stick to my 17 years lol......but hmmm a poem is in the works.........i actually have one to post so lemme put it here......

Old Enough to.....drive?

Wrote this poem two months ago.
for those who had the pleasure of reading on the paper then, I'm reposting it.
for those who haven't read it, or any poetry I've written recently, here's something I just wrote in class, bored.....

I'm glad I don't have the green light,
cuz I'm definitely not ready to go,
I need a red one, or a yellow,
just need to take it slow....

Can't even fathom being speedy,
no good comes from being fast,
the adrenaline rush is misleading,
lead me right into a crash.

Head first, no airbags,
leaving too much trauma to the heart,
that major emotional damage,
makes me wish I stayed in park.

Mama warned her beloved only son,
driving instructor told him from the start,
driving that rusty, metal deathtrap,
would do this driver no good in the dark.

But with age comes responsibility,
and does this license in hand,
given this enormous city of roads and maps,
at this intersection I stand.....

So it's Wednesday.....

2008-12-17T19:59:00.002-05:00

yeah.
it's wednesday[hmmmm should be pronounced wed-nes-day, but w/e]
and i'm chillin'. jazz music is playing over here [coleman hawkins currently; if you don't know, look up his song "Under Paris Skies"]. knee hurts a bit. and i need a car.

hmmm do i have anything cool to post........hmm.......nah, not reaally. just chillin'.
idk. i'm tired. and i've been under writers' block for a min. shit caught me in ap literature. so much for my perfect essay lol......but poetry will be posted soon.......

on my music mind, i'm trying to find the perfect trombone solo for jazz band, seeing i'm the lead trombone......j.j. johnson's "my favorite things" is at the top of my list. go find it and hear it if you've never heard it. also, search KiD CuDi if you want to hear something different in the genre of HIP-HOP, not rap. and if you can, go to imeem and listen to his song "Day N Night" and "Is There Any Love?", a song he did with Wale [DC artist, please believe].

so yeah,
hello world.
goodnight world.
PEACE.

Whoa....where have I been......?

2008-12-12T18:30:00.005-05:00

lls whoa
i haven't been on in a minute. this hiatus came when a hard time struck me. My girlfriend and I went on a break......ap physics had been killing me.......mother and I had been fighting non-stop......and life was just bearing down on me......

now, things have gotten better. the break's been over with, my mother and i aren't fighting anymore [that much. isn't as bad as we used to], school is coming along, and these college apps are getting written lol......

the only downside is that i have laryngitis right now, with no good tea in the house......
:(.......oh well.......
but yeah. hey to those who read.
i'm back.
just have to remember to read and write every tuesday and friday, or at least weekly......

so good evening/afternoon/morning, depending on your location.

my quote to you is this:

The unexamined life is not worth living.
-Socrates

I was alive to see this......

2008-11-05T18:45:00.002-05:00

to see history made, not learning about it. Even though i'm african-american, the fact a president of any race besides caucasian made it to office is history within itself. People knew if we didn't elect Barack, the U.S. would not be seen a great by these outlying countries. I'm so tired of Americans being treated as assholes whenever we leave the country because of how countries outside of the Western World view us. These sad stereotypes of American people make me sad becuase we all view each other with bias, even within our own country. To think people out there are willing to elect a candidiate based on race, not for the betterment of our country, is a sad thought. But I cannot stress enough the importance of last night's election. At age 17, I witnessed one of the biggest days in American history. And I'm proud. Yes. We. Can.

Tuesday MORNING Randomness.....

2008-10-21T10:20:00.002-04:00

Morning

i know i keep writing on here sporatically.....

nonetheless

i'm here

what's good?

lol

Hmmmm

my morning randomness from my school computer......

is a quote i read a few weeks ago

and it's been on my mind since.....

"To repeat what others have said, requires education; to challenge it, requires brains"

Mary Poole

"Readers are plentiful; thinkers are rare"

Harriet Martineau

These TWO quotes lol made me think a lot....

it inspires me to be different

to bring about a change

to make a difference......

and for me it comes down to this:

I can live, go to college, be successful, have everything my heart desires, but if I can't make a difference in one person's life, then I've failed at everything.

That's how i feel.....

Oopsy my bad......Happy Friday people....

2008-10-10T20:03:00.002-04:00

Artist: Margot & The Nuclear So and So's
Album: Animal
Songs of note: The entire album [but look for O' What A Nightmare, it's my fav. song]

indie rock doesn't get better than this, i believe. i love this album. but i'm an indiehead, so i guess it's expected. but still, they are cool. check em out if you can.

hi

sorry

been busy with senior stuff

and other stuff. lol.

but regardless

i have a post.

music post.

this group is awesome.

whoa......sorry for the hiatus.....

2008-09-30T18:37:00.004-04:00

yeah sorry
i've been kinda busy
and sleepy lls.
but regardless,
what is up with everyone?
let's see.....
i owe two tuesdays and a friday i believe....
so without further ado.....

Tuesday Randomness x2

well
the one thing that's been on my mind in this past week is, well, music.
two CDs i have been listening to:

Album: Robbers & Cowards
Artist: Cold War Kids
Songs of Note: Hang Me Out To Dry, Hospital Beds, Saint John, We Used to Vacation

i like the Cold War Kids.
this isn't their most recent album, which came out last tuesday. [i bought it too]
this was their first album.
i hadn't had it until recently, and i like it.
the best music to just travel to,
or going places in the car.
all in all,
one of my favorite CDs.

Album: With Love and Squalor
Artist: We Are Scientists
Songs of Note: The Entire CD...lls

We Are Scientists is my favorite indie band. i have both of their mainstream CDs, this one and Brain Thrust Mastery. I know it's weird for me to blog about two rock bands, but I love rock. and i love any music that is different, and sounds great.

and my friday was......interesting....
i was jumping on the bed......
and fell....lol i'm okay....
i wanted to go out with my girlfriend, cuz it was our 5 month anniversary
but things happened
and we couldn't go out.
i got over it though.
went and got a haircut.
[i forgot to mention there was no school friday]
so yeah
how was your friday and/or tuesday?

Another late Friday post....

2008-09-19T23:28:00.002-04:00

Sorry...
been kinda busy....
and dizzy....
and sick....
and stressed....
but other than that i'm great.

my day....
well....
went to school......
did nothing important there......
went to chipotle....
ate nothing important there [lls]......
came home and beat my friend in football on xbox 360....
and chilled this entire time cuz i'm hot.....
my room is humid.....
and i'm trying to kill a mosquito [lost it....dang]

so....
what's up?

Tuesday....the RanDomNess.....

2008-09-16T22:04:00.003-04:00

yeah.
hello people.
good morrow.
konichiwa.
hola.
just felt like saying hi.

today
it's just a small poem i feel like writing right now....
but i have more stuff if you look at my first two posts on my blogspot.

but yeah
it's untitled
just a kind of play by play of what i see.....

the deafening silence
that affects everyone around me
finally seeing the difference between truth
and what it's perceived to be.

i guess the term for that
is called irony,
how we believe one thing
when it isn't what we believe it to be.

silence, great silence,
in my head, a soliloquy,
talking things out with myself
now with the ability to finally see.

yet i feel like
i'm still binded to a fee,
a chain that tethers me to lies
and i'm desperately searching for a key.....

hello hello....

2008-09-15T18:11:00.003-04:00

honestly
today
i'm just going to tell you what i'm listening to
cuz this morning
i was jamming
and this afternoon
i'm chillin'.

Morning:

Artist: Bonobo
Song: Pick Up
Album: Dial "M" for Monkey

great song, and the whole album is good.
this is my favorite song, but i didn't get the entire album until a few days ago.
i guarantee if you listen to this one song, you'll like it.
the music is like ambient, yet it's just cool.

Afternoon:

Artist: Bloc Party
Song: Banquet/She's Hearing Voices
Album: Silent Alarm

I listen to a variety of music, and this band is a part of it. I like these two songs off the album, and anyone who likes alternative or indie rock, then you should def. give them a listen.

and i'm done.....
so i leave with a quote:

"Life is just a mirror, and what you see out there, you must first see inside of you."
Wally Amos

Late Ass Friday Post.......SO....Tell me About Your Friday.

2008-09-12T22:51:00.004-04:00

Well then....
lol.

Hello all.
whomever reads.
people who accidentally click this link.
and for those who actually come here looking for something interesting......
or to see if i have something good in the blogroll lls.
whatever.
my point is....
good evening.

anyway.
today.
what did i do....?

-changed my song on this blog.
-listened to a tribe called quest a majority of the day.
-went to school WITHOUT an umbrella today......[implying it rained]
-got a haircut.
-had some lemonade.
-finished chapter one to a research practicum on kinteic energy and CO2 emissions
-[i like the enviroment]
-looked for a nike windbreaker.
-saw the crazy swiss scientists that are going to get earth sucked into a black hole.
[shame on them for tampering with God's creation......knowing for sure that this is by far the STUPIDEST thing i can think of.......the black holle will cease all life on earth as we know it.....so yeah.....idc what's out there, it's still TOO many people to meet here....so let's work on that....and learn to talk to animals too......]

-and had a slurpee.
[everyone loves a good slurpee. i don't think anyone can resist mixing their slurpees....]

so yeah.
your day, please?

Another Day of Tuesday Randomness....

2008-09-09T17:50:00.002-04:00

You know,
i need a catchier title for tuesdays.....idk.....
but that's beside the point. It's Tuesday, and I feel the need to randomly blog about anything. and today it'll be a random quote.
that's it. nothing special.

so here is the quote......

"To be conscious that you are ignorant is a great step to knowledge. "
Benjamin Disraeli

think about it.....

Hear Ye, Hear Ye......Patrons of Music.....VMAs?

2008-09-08T20:51:00.000-04:00

wow.
i can't believe i sat through the entire VMAs last night.
the effects were good, and the performances were alright, but a few things stuck out to me.......

1)How the hell did Britney Spears get three awards, including Video of the Year, the most sought after award at the VMAs? Like, I don't follow. did i miss something? was her videos THAT good? I can name people who deserved a few of the awards she received.

Video of The Year: The Ting Tings, or Chris Brown, or even the Jonas Brothers. But not Britney.

Female Video of the Year: Katy Perry, hands down. or Mrs. Carey-Cannon.

Best pop video: she can have this one.

i'm just saying, I haven't heard too many positive things about Britney Spears lately, including her music......so idk.....

2) This Guy.

Right now, i can honestly say Lollipop didn't deserve Best Hip-Hop Video. Lupe did. Kanye did. Homecoming and Superstar are some of the best songs from two of the Chi's premier rappers. And thhe message in the two songs was completely different from Lollipop. Cuz we all know what it means when she "licked me like a lollipop"......think about it........

3) Kanye and T.I. Two people who deserved a VMA and didn't get one.

T.I. has been through some rough stuff in this past year. house arrest? for i think four months? and he comes out and drops two singles, and gets no nods for a VMA. he deserved one. Not he should have got one, he DESERVED IT.

Mr. West. He might be cocky, but he damn sure should've walked away with an armful of VMAs. WTF? Graduation had how many #1 songs on the Billboard Music Charts? Five. How many albums sold the first week? Roughly a million. And he produced the entire album, and rapped over every beat. AND DIDN'T get NOT ONE VMA NOD? now that is when we need a recount in the voting. See, Kanye has a reason to be mad at Britney this year. WTF? She won video of the year, and who's music has sold more and played more? who's video gets requested more? Maaan that blew me how neither one of these guys didn't get one VMA. the most DESERVING people this year, along with Lupe Fiasco, Common, and the Cool Kids???? None of them had an award. what has MTV come to????

It's Friggin' Friday.....Gee Willikers, Batman!!!

2008-09-05T17:33:00.005-04:00

okay.
now that i got that out of system, I'm just pointing out the obvious first. It's Friday. Yes, Friday. Not Monday, or Tuesday. No. It's Friday. Remember that.

and now that i've hopefully managed to capture your attention and hold it through the first part of this post, I figure i should do something Friday.....something specific.....like......hmmmm.......Tell me About Your Friday.......i like that.....where you can just post what's on your mind, or you need to just type something out to get your mind straight, or talk about how someone tripped and fell.....doesn't matter. It's just whatever you feel like writing in your comment.

To make it fair, my Friday was cool, I guess. Went to Chik-fil-a for breakfast......did a lot of work at school [senior.....yessir]....and waited for the bus to come to take me home.........and today was just.......friday. Pretty much.....

[random note: love any work of jackson pollock. he's a good artist.]

A Random Quote

2008-09-04T23:52:00.003-04:00

talking to my friend
and somehow i say something that is very significant, and she said that is one of the best quotes i have ever heard.

" Weird shit can make us question things that could shake the very foundations of what we base our beliefs on....for anything"

think about it.

F.M. PHENOMENAL: Illuminati

2008-09-04T22:50:00.000-04:00

F.M. PHENOMENAL: Illuminati

DOOMED.

2008-09-03T23:02:00.003-04:00

Yo.......
Mike Waxx and illroots.com dropped an MF Doom mixtape....exclusive......peep that joint......download link at the bottom of the post.....

http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3103/2820219680_6fe816f7b4_o.jpg
Here's what is written on the website:

"Another Mike Waxx & illRoots collab!
A year in the making. No lie, I was originally going to drop this mixtape in September of 2007.
It’s been an on and off process since then, but it is finally here.
Featuring blends, remixes, exclusive freestyles from some good friends of mine, rarities, live performances and much more.
I put mad effort into this project, so I would really appreciate you to check it out, it’s a free download. Included is a bonus wallpaper designed by 4Five, who also did the cover.
I will be printing up some hard copies with special edition artwork and a few other goodies soon, so be on the lookout for that (leave a comment if you might be interested in purchasing).
Also, huge props to OJ Loopz for splitting this up for me, I appreciate it my dude.
I’m done talking, please let everyone know about this project, you wont be disappointed!

1. DOOMposter Intro
2. Jake One - Trap Door (Ft. MF DOOM)
3. Donny Goines - Vinca Rosea [EXCLUSIVE]
4. MF DOOM - Paper Planes
5. Ryan Leslie - Addiction (Ft. Cassie & Fabolous)
6. J.Rocwell & Sugar Tongue Slim - Mandrake [EXCLUSIVE]
7. Mighty Underdogs - Gunfight (Ft. MF DOOM)
8. Nas - Speaks On DOOM
9. Nas - Hope (Ft. Chrisette Michelle)
10. 3rd Bass - Gas Face (Ft. MF DOOM)
11. Nov Ganon - Nettle Leaves [EXCLUSIVE]
12. Lil’ Wayne - A Milli
13. MF DOOM - A Milli Freestyle
14. J. Dilla - Sniper Elite (Ft. MF DOOM)
15. Nero - Eucalyptus [EXCLUSIVE]
16. Kool G. Rap - Ill Street Blues
17. Rick Ross - Speedin’ (Ft. R. Kelly)
18. Jabee - Meditation [EXCLUSIVE]
19. MF DOOM - Boulder Holder
20. Justice - We Are Your Friends
21. Jay-Z - Pray
22. MF DOOM - I Hear Voices (Live)
23. J-Snyder - The Magic Message [EXCLUSIVE]
24. Big Boi - Royal Flush (Ft. Raekwon & Andre 3000)
25. Lil’ Wayne - Got Money (Ft. T-Pain)
26. T-Pain - Can’t Believe It (Ft. Lil’ Wayne)
27. J. Dilla - Mash’s Revenge (Ft. MF DOOM & Guilty Simpson)
28. MF DOOM - Hoe Cakes [Ant Remix]
29. Kumi Hues - Camphor [EXCLUSIVE]
30. MF DOOM - Shimmy Shimmy Ladies "

Download

Hip-Hop

2008-09-03T20:57:00.005-04:00

Well

as i've been listening to Seperate but Equal [DJ Drama/Little Brother], I was thinking about the current state of hip-hop* in America, and where it's going. Only being a senior, I've listened to a lot of hip-hop* over the years, ranging from ATCQ, to Biggie, to Common, to the Cool Kids. I realize how much hip-hop* has impacted my musical sense, and also furthered my thirst in the struggle for knowledge and how to gain it. And it makes me realize how pointless rap can be sometimes....like, I have no motivation to sell drugs, or smoke weed, or wear a million diamonds. Everyone is motivated by money, but I feel my motivation is my love for what i like to do. I gave up on rap last year in 2007. Something hit me, the message in the rap songs get redundant. I hear the same thing in every song, and as both a producer and a listener with a keen ear, it gets boring, tiring. And, above all, it doesn't motivate me to gain anything except power and fame. And I don't need fame, by no means. All I need is the ability to succeed, really. Like, if you've meditated on Common or Lupe or Tribe as much as I have, then you know it's about being an intellectual, and having fun in everyday situations. I've meditated a lot, and had to find myself, and I realized i really didn't like rap. I just kind of listened to it to keep up with everyone, not to like it all that much. And I love hip-hop*. Simple enough. [Well, there is the occasional rap song that is good.....but it's just opinion]

*i define rap and hip-hop as two different types of music. Hip-Hop is a style of music that portrays knowledge and some form of intellectual insight. Like, it's not dumbed down to make drugs or anything to seem cool. Rap, in my opinion, is music that brags about what someone owns, what they've done, what they did to get by.....that kind of thing. i.e. Lupe=hip-hop. Lil Wayne=Rap. Get The picture?

So it's Tuesday....

2008-09-02T20:04:00.005-04:00

and i figured i need to do something on this blog every tuesday.....like a track i'm listening to, or something like that......a CD i'm waiting for, or something noteworthy......so i guess it'll be tuesday randomness.....music......clothing.....poetry......or whatever.....so today i guess i'll write about a song i'm listening to.....

Artist: N*E*R*D
Song: You Know What

Album: Seeing Sounds

i like this song.....N*E*R*D gets away from their normal, head-banging, jump on your table and scream "m-f**ker are you ADHD??!?!?" which i enjoy.....it's just chill music, and Pharrell becomes his normal singer self again......it's something to chill to, really.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_cdPWwBKplI
here's the song if you've never heard it.

Urban Medium

2008-08-30T18:21:00.004-04:00

Maaaan i love Urban medium

i feel like they are very influential in all the projects they do. i swear, it makes me think abstract. that's how cool urban medium is. the cool thing about it, it's not even a big company. it's just a husband and wife doing thier thing. tell me that's not cool.....just make me want to go spraypaint something.....

http://www.urbanmedium.com/

The best hip-hop tandem....

2008-08-30T11:16:00.003-04:00

well in my opinion....
is Little Brother.

I mean yeah the Cool Kids are great

but that real soul hip-hop
that like, reminds me of ATCQ
they are good.

the best CD is prob. the mistrel show.

go look for it...listen to it.....bootleg it....download it....w/e you want lls

Coming back.....

2008-08-28T21:22:00.003-04:00

I haven't posted in awhile so i'm back now.
should be new poetry at least every one/two weeks.....
so yeah.

think about it.

2008-08-28T21:15:00.004-04:00

i've had this line for a poem on my mind for awhile.....and this is the first poem i've posted in almost nine months.....so i typed and it took me to this....just think on the various thoughts i put in here.....

one, two, three,
or is it three, two, one?
kick-off, tip-off,
or the tip of the gun?

we all out of our gates,
but weren't prepared to run,
but it's too late now
to head back to square one.

but, wait....
i had a premonition,
i realized that knowledge
will be our greatest ammunition.

like, instead of loading a gun,
just load your head,
put common sense & knowledge there
and you will have the bread..

but to try not doing right?
to try to sink and not swim?
i ask because somedays in this life
it's like we let our downfalls win.

jealous hearts of man
plague our world with desecration,
so i guess we have to push
to get to a higher elevation.

and in this future that's knocking
things we've never seen before,
if we stay this way we are
we may not exist anymore.

and the "struggle" for knowledge
will be an everlasting struggle,
and i don't how to end it
so i'll get mine and be humble.

but some need a bit
a bit of food for thought,
because we need to feed the "hunger"
in our knowledge and wisdom sought.

we need to open our eyes
and see truth, not plight,
that way we'll have light
in this everlasting night....

A Poem from the Soul

2008-02-11T21:10:00.000-05:00

I Figured my first post would be something people I know really liked when I first wrote it. So yeah.

I literally sat down for over an hour, just letting go on this poem....I had to really put my soul into writing this. These words came from the inner workings of my mind and the world today in a sense.....

As I sit and I write,
with a pen, no mics,
no flights, no hype,
no flashing lights.

It's life, as i live,
something God can only give,
I try to take something from it,
like a derivative.

I rise and I fall,
never know who to call,
because lies are so loud,
and truth is never proud.

I say knowledge is king,
wisdom is virtue,
fear is too prevalent,
and love can sometimes hurt you.

The world is too concerned,
about being so cool,
you could own material wealth,
and be the 'coolest' fool.

Then again, life is short,
if you look through the scope,
so many could be for you,
next minute they're at your throat.

Starting to sink, guess I'm drained,
through the stress and the strain,
thoughts and memories filled with pain,
fall on my mind like summer rain.

Like a never-ending rain,
like God's never-ending reign,
at this point I'm not crazy,
but emotionally insane.

I don't even know how to feel,
so my emotions i tend to seal,
I give them a temporary farewell,
and keep them hidden well.

I have no reason to really stunt,
never have to really front,
been true since two,
sat in a daycare for a month.

Mama never looked back,
never thought I had a pa,
no siblings with me there,
one kid on a see-saw.

Maybe that's why I'm so lucky,
I like being around others,
guess cuz I really have no one,
no blood sisters or brothers.

I guess on top of that,
I wanted a Shakespeare play,
wanting a "Romeo & Juliet",
but Juliet always runs away.

I can never find a scene,
the "special" kind of thing,
I guess the "fairy-tale" story,
where I can escape into my dreams.

But life is all too real,
this world is too obscene,
headed to "hell in a handbasket",
if you know what I mean.