You know, You know.

I like this song.
Why Drake left this off the album , idk.

So....?

I guess that's it.
that was quick.
all the doubts I had....
all the unsureness I had put away....
it was validated....
that quickly.
just as the star pitcher starts growing tired from wear,
and knows the rotation behind him is ready to step up,
and the manager wants to win....
someone else in the rotation takes the lead spot for the star pitcher....
while the star pitcher leads a journey into obscurity, and eventual free agency....
because we all know....
every manager keeps a team stocked....
and the manager wants to win....

but it's not so bad.
free agency is the change the pitcher needed....
new team, fresh start....
a blessing in disguise, if you believe.
because sometimes a wake up call is needed
to get you back on track.

I can't be mad at the team,
or the manager.
some players deserve it more than me.
the manager needs better results.
and I wasn't producing.
rather than giving a verbal tongue lashing or being mad...
or begging to rejoin the team......
I just look and laugh.
because the situation works for both the pitcher and the manager.
free time from the game is what I've needed....
I had it before I joined the team,
and now I'll have it afterwards.
because when a player leaves a team,
another team is always there to welcome a new addition....
that is, if I don't stay in free agency.

hopefully, the manager gets the production from their new pitcher....
hopefully he won't meet the same fate as his predecessor....
and hopefully, he'll be the team's new MVP and lead em to a championship.

but right now,
this pitcher is icing the shoulder,
resting the quads,
and enjoying a break that was unforeseen.
sooner or later, though.....
I'll talk to my agent....
and see if I can find a new team...
and hopefully,
I'll be another manager's star.

[I hope you get the analogy I was trying to get across.]

Bringing It All Together.

small thing I just noticed:

I never put pics in my posts.

I wonder why.

well....

I guess I'll do a random one.

see?

random.

anywho....

I haven't posted in awhile....

which is commonplace for myself nowadays.

a lot on my mind nowadays,

which is a little weirder than usual.

so now,

I'm gonna take some time to just talk.

and knowing the people I know,

if they read this, it will be brought to my attention....

but I don't care.

School:

honestly, school isn't going 100% my way right now.

I have a C- in English [not really bad but nowhere close to good]

and I'm getting behind a lil bit.

and I'm just having a hard time finding motivation here right now.

I'm not depressed. just confused.

I have three weeks to turn it around.

and I know I never work to my potential....

but I have to....

so I hope to get back to it all.

Friends:

I love my people here at Tech,

especially the circle I run with.

but I always feel like they don't understand.

like they know what I say...

but they don't truly 'hear' what I'm saying.

I feel like everyone's view is so material sometimes....

it's like everyone has that whole

"it's college, no need to be so serious" creed....

and I just don't function like i don't care.

and I'm not saying that they're always like that...

but I feel that they're like that sometimes....

especially with girls and stuff....

I feel like everyone just wants a girl to fuck for the night....

while I want a girl to actually appreciate [hard to find in college I know]...

and ironically, things go so much better for them and not me....

everyone wants to drink....

I don't like drinking....yet I do it anyways (never a lot though)...

*sigh* idk why either....

and everyone wants to party.....

and I go....but I know I don't wanna be there.....

....idk. I just need to get my priorities straight and not fret.

Girls:

this has to be the most confusing thing on my mind.

which is normal.

but nowadays I'm just....idk.

the one girl I like here.....

and we've been arguing.....

and it's like....why....

and we talked and we're done with the petty arguments...

but still....

we only have three weeks....

we're not even in a relationship.....

and if we aren't by semester's end...

then I fear losing the chemistry and everything we had over the summer....

because I'm not gonna hold her to talking to me over the summer.....

because to be honest, if I don't see her during the summer,

I'm gonna be unhappy.

and I might not keep up with her well enough.

I know myself well enough to know that.

and that's three months.

so idk.....

and to be honest, a lot of girls at Tech are very unattractive to me.

and I mean a LOT of them....

cuz some just get extra drunk, which makes em extra slutty....

and it's like why would I want a girl who's loose as shit?

so if the girl and I don't work out....

I'm back to being single.....

and I don't expect any girl to change that anytime soon.

but the thing is.....

I don't fear it.

I've been by myself longer than I've been in relationships.

so not being in one isn't something to fret over,

considering it'll be a year since my last relationship in June.

*sigh* although it'd be nice to keep someone consistently happy....

but apparently, every girl just wants a guy to screw em and keep it moving....

so they can do them...

and I'm gonna do me.

[UPDATE: well, I guess it's over. that was quick....before I could even post it lol. so now I am single...hands down.]

Myself:

I just find myself lost sometimes out here.

I wish to be home so badly.....

but I know when I get there.....

I'll wish to be far away.

and I miss my mom so much.

I worry for her so much.

I just feel like my understanding of life is always so different from everyone....

and when I speak, no one really understands me....

so even when I'm with other people,

I still feel alone.

and it's not that I don't appreciate my friends.

but they don't think like me....

and they don't or won't understand where I come from a lot of the times.

and my other friends try to put religion on me sometimes....

and I already have a relationship with God and Jesus....

I know it's not perfect....but it's worked on....

and I'm just not into religious groups like everyone else is....

I just feel more comfortable praising God in my own privacy....

but he still gets praise in church.

idk...

I'm still lost. But summer shall be here soon.....

where I will sleep...forever....

or until summer school starts.

The Last Day of February.

It's February 28th.

And what is there to say....

spring break is at the end of the week....

I got a toy to finish for this competition in my studio class....

a profile on the Hundreds to finish for English.....

not to mention all the beats I have to do over break...

these past few weeks have been weird.

let's stat with the social aspect:

went to a few parties these past few weeks.

If you know, then you know I'm not a party person....

I don't really like to drink, nor do I enjoy being around drunk people,

cuz they ALWAYS get OC.....

and then you're stuck babysitting/looking out for them.

regardless....the parties I've been to have been quite alright,

but I'm prob gonna stop going...or at least stop going as much...

like last semester.....

and just chill...which is what I enjoy, ya know?

next: the female aspect.

Over these past few weeks since the semester started,

i've been getting a feel for my surroundings, in relation to girls at VT.

last semester, I downed any possibility for a decent VT girl, since the majority likes to:

-party

-get too drunk

-get too lose to the point where they lose ALL inhibitions.

BUT

I found one.

a needle in a haystack.

a diamond among rubies.

a light among the clouds.

you get what I'm saying.

I found a girl here that's different than the rest.

someone who's hard to find, ya know?

and...I'm making progress with her.

she's so nice and I like her a lot....

it always makes me wonder, why am I deserving of the time of such a wonderful person?

...I'm finding the answer to that every day.

but I don't wanna get ahead of myself....

so I'll leave it at that.

To be real, though,

I'm tired.

I think it's time to head home,

catch up on friends, family, and sleep...lol.

but....let's see how this week goes.

College is an interesting experience so far.

The Human Chain.

I love this Nike ad.
one of their best.

Happy Valentines' Day

Happy Valentines Day to all,

whether you have one or not,

know you're all loved, yo.

That being said,

I haven't blogged in about one month.

and I feel bad about it.

so here's the catch up:

Just read a poem for an open mic on Friday.

I'll prob post it later.

Ummm....

went partying this weekend,

which is weird, considering I'm not big on parties....

what else.....

i met a girl down here....

she's nice.....

but I'm still figuring if she wants me to be that guy for her...

that's a blog post for another day...

I changed my major here.

Trying to do Industrial Design.....

then I can maybe get into sneaker design...

and that's it so far.

I'm gonna try to blog more often.

it's hard to keep consistent readers if I don't consistently blog.

so I shall.

and this song is for Valentines Day.

goes out to all the lovers out there.

a well known ATCQ jam.

Happy Valentines Day, y'all.

Take It In Blood.

man I love this beat.
Chip tha Ripper did his own version of this song too.
But of course,
I like Nas's better.
Nas is my favorite MC.

that being said,
here's my list of my top ten favorite MCs/Groups.

1. Nas
2. Lupe Fiasco
3. The Cool Kids
4. A Tribe Called Quest
5. Common/Pac Div [tie]
6. Kanye West
7. De La Soul/J Dilla [tie]
8. Biggie
9. KiD CuDi
10. Any Madlib project lol [Madvillian, Quasimoto, etc.]

I know,
Jay-Z and Wale and a whole bunch of others
are NOT on here.
No disrespect to them or anything.
They just aren't in my top ten.
Although Jay and Wale get honorable mention.
I do listen to em.

Maybe tomorrow,
I'll do my top ten bands....
....
that'll take awhile lol....

My past two days looked like...

a few events that have happened.



the dentist's office.
I had to get a cavity filled.
and that, my friend,
is a big ass needle
on the right side of that tray.
that got inserted into my jaw.
TWICE.
hurt like a bitch.
and I could not feel a thing.
for four hours or so.....
I'm good though, don't worry.
that was monday.

This was yesterday.

Verizon Center.
i was at the Wizards game against the Pistons.
nice seats right?
only problem was,
the Wizards LOST.
To a team that, up until this game,
lost 12 straight games.
smh....
oh well.

And that's the week so far.

Also,
please please please....
pray for those in Haiti....
donate where you can....
a little goes a long ways, people.
Look into your heart, people....
imagine if you were in that same situation....
just a lil bit, y'all.

Oh Leh Do Ittt!

This post is just a shout to my man K Mills.
He has his own personal blog, called:
Luminescencee.
go peep when you get the chance.
his banner is in the righthand corner of the blog,
under the sB! banner.

Also, if you're on Twitter,
follow
@miszGECHI
@Simple_AsSetzer
&
@K_Mills

they're the reason this post is titled the way it is lol.
that's all.
Happy Friday.

Brand New.

I realize,
I haven't shown the consistency on this blog
that it deserves.
so today....
I'm starting over.

I'm Travis Brown.
Some call me Trav, SB, SBTravie, etc....
and I'm gonna become your new favorite college student.

Every day, I'm gonna share some experience I've had at school,
and being this is spring semester, shit is gonna go DOWWWWN lol.

But yeah,
I'm not your average college student,
so this might be an interesting blog.....
I don't try to be different,
but I don't agree with everyone else.
So there in lies the conflict.
But yeah....
welcome.

Background info on me:
Freshman at Virginia Tech.
Straight out of Prince Georges County [Largo Largo!].
I got maaaaad issues lol.
And I write poetry [random, but one of my strong suits]
That's me.

And I write for spoiledBROKE! my secondary blog I do with my peoples.
read there to keep up with the trends of our current age of fashion and whatnot.

And that's that.
Come back when you can.